Growing up in Hawaii majority are Catholics, I have been attending St Joseph church for many years. During high school i went to St Joseph church every Wednesday nights for confirmation studies which is a 2 year term, one of my main reasons to attend was to check out the girls, but i end up getting serious about finishing the term with my group and getting confirmed.
I remeber this night like it was yesterday, jr boy smile which he did then i took this photo funny Dog. He was a very funny and loving dog we was considered as one of my kids/ brother, very playful lots of energy. On the night of June 22 2016 the night i will never forget and would change my life forever, was the night Jr boy got hit and run and gone home with the lord. My whole world pause, all the good memories started poping up in my mind. Tears started to drop heavly, nevered cried so hard in my life he ment the world to me, remembered times we took care of Jr boy when he was born to all the fun times we had. Writing this blog was a bit hard tears started to come, i wanted to write more but i cant.
Hanabada days ( back in the day) In Hawaii during my grade school to High school times after school, seeing these white vans parked along the streets in the neighborhood the kids gets excited there would be at times 4 to 5 food trucks, in Hawaii we call them Manapua trucks (lunch wagons). there would be long lines just to order fried noodles, porkbuns, pork cash , spam musubi and more, some of the many things I love about living in Hawaii.
What a night got the chance to hang out with a few artist on stage, packed evening only a few get to experience being on stage. I thank god for every opportunity and every moment, what ever you do in life don't let anyone tell you, you can't! go get it!!! believe!
In my room sitting with deep thoughts on what to write for my next blog post, all of a sudden memories from the past came around. The past memories, I felt empty like a car with no gas knowing you cant get anywhere sec, min hours goes by nothing is happening.
The other night got together with a few classmates to hangout and celebrate our friends husbands birthday had lots of fun eating, drinking and dancing it was a small reunion great night with friends.
When I see this photo of the sunset and somewhat of a calm ocean, What comes to mind is after a storm or big waves at the end the storm and ocean calm down. I remember during 2012-2016 was a season where I hit rock bottom, many storms and waves came that would bring problems one after another. However I kept it all bottled up inside, going to work was very hard to focus but I had to put on a mask, a fake smile or identity and pretend that everything was good. I didn't know how to handle it or have anyone to go to, had too much pride to seek help. Some of the many things that happened to me were that I became homeless for a while, had zero funds, and collecting bottles and cans to survive; losing many things in my life that meant a lot to me. Slowly the storms and waves have lessened, but there will still be times it would return, similar to the photo above the ocean will soon be calm to see a beautiful sunset at my horizon.
From 2013 - 2015 I went through a series of up's and downs, to the point I hit rock bottom also went through deep depression. The things that help me through my low points in life was family , God and knowledge by reading and listening to audio books. It was a must to better myself by working on self development and my purpose, I need to Live The Mission to be a better person.
Here's a photo of me and one of my favorite R&B groups Silk. I got the privilege to hang out and assisted the group from the meet and greet to their dressing room before the concert started.
Its been non stop cold weather, for my cold mornings been eating pho. Helps me keep warm, satisfying and full.
This evening we celebrating one of my good friends birthday with his family, at my surprise we had Asian style feast. The food was awesome sticky rice, egg rolls, chicken and ribs along side with papaya salad.
Last night I attended Captian Marvel fan event at the movie cinemas. Hanging out with friends, got to see the premire of Captian Marvel great movie.
Today working on projects, reading books and listening to audio books on self development. Listing down my 2019 goals in order for me to becoming a better me I need to go through the process, learning from my failures.
This bible scripture ( romans 8:18) it got me thinking alot because deep inside, knowing the pain I went throught in the past, its not compare to the Joy that is coming.